I'm only posting this wee little bit of free written drivel thanks to X and lemmy. Yes, it is fiction. And bleh...lol.
Title: Tears
There’s something about tears. Once they start, you just can’t get them to stop. Whether
they are tears of joy, tears of sadness, tears of frustration, tears of anger…they just don’t end once you let them begin. Sometimes they cleanse. Sometimes they make you sick, so sick that your stomach turns and you find yourself on your knees, heaving and still sobbing. And yet…tears are necessary. A way to express emotions that even the most well strung words can’t capture.
That’s why I hate them. My emotions are just that, mine. I feel no need to share them. Not with my mother, my father, my family, my significant other. I have kept them closely guarded for years and see no reason that should change. Or, I guess I saw no reason for that to change. Not until recently.
Sure, I’ve had my share of pain. I’ve had my share of joy. I’ve had all of the things in this life that make a person want to cry. I just don’t. Those moments of pain and joy are mine and mine alone. So why…why now do I find myself sitting in front of this fucking piece of paper ready to pour my heart out? Why now do I find myself fighting back tears that have been threatening for months…no…years?
Why?
Because today someone walked through my door that I never expected. Today, someone that I last saw when they were nothing more than a scrawny teenager came bouncing through that door all grown up. Someone that I was supposed to forget 10 years ago…but never have. They came bounding back into my life with a stack of papers that went from their arms to the floor when we ran into each other. With a thousand watt smile that still lights up a room. With a hug and a kiss on the cheek that sent me back ten years. When I couldn’t have what I wanted…or be what they needed.
So, now, here I sit…tears finally spilling over. Not knowing what to do with myself. Having no idea where I go from here. I can’t walk out that door. Not right now. They may still be out there and I just don’t want to explain why my eyes are blood shot and puffy. I can’t tell them that, ten years later, I still love them as much as I did the day they walked away.
Fucking tears…
Wed Jun 21, 2006 10:00 pm
lemons
Joined: 12 Feb 2006
Posts: 964
Location: here ... with her <3
Stands and bows to Justy
Awww, that was really sweet of you to post this!! I know you didn't want to ..... but thank you Justy
I like what you wrote ....... I never really stopped to think about all the tears a person sheds. They do serve so many purposes ..... good and bad. But I also like how you also intertwined the lost love into it too.
Thanks for sharing this C!!!!!!!!!
((((((((((((((((((Just))))))))))))))))
Lemmy _________________
"No smile is more beautiful than one that has struggled through the tears"
~Unknown
Wed Jun 21, 2006 10:17 pm
Xalia1 Moderators
Joined: 05 May 2004
Posts: 3702
Location: In love
Just,
I am so glad you posted this.
Your words were tugging at my heart by the end of your story.
I liked the way you described tears at the beginning and then ended it with *f**king tears*...
I hope you find peace hun, as over-used as that phrase is.
Know that we are all here for you if you need us... and I'll keep an extra hankie in my 'magic purse' just for you.
I would love to see more things you have written and tucked away out of our sight... I know you have some, lol, give us another peek!
Take care hun.
Hugs,
Xalia _________________ Nobody said life would be easy...They just promised it would be worth it.
~♥♥~
~The words fail me.. because what I feel for you is beyond description...~
Thu Jun 22, 2006 2:27 am
Allison
Joined: 12 Oct 2005
Posts: 4216
Location: Florida
(((Justy))) I know the feeling. Sorry I didn't get to read this until today. This is very well written even if it is sad. Maybe it will have a happy ending Thanks for posting.
Alli _________________ Alli
Thu Jun 22, 2006 8:14 pm
DarkChyldesKiss Site Admin
Joined: 29 Mar 2005
Posts: 3381
Location: Inner Sanctum
Your right!!! 34 years...she threw me out.....a year later she spent 3 weeks watching me sleep 3000 miles from our home in a coma .
She made sure she had a black dress....just in case
She is my Sun...My Moon.... and My Earth......and won't take me back
FUCKING TEARS........................you got that really right !
thank you for caring and sharing
tex _________________ INVICTUS...WILLIAM E. HENLEY
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