yesterday
i told one of my friends
my deepest darkest secret
yeah it was deep
but it wasn't that dark
the dark part was
keeping it hidden
...but anyway
i told her
that i was into she's
but that didn't mean
i was into her
in fact, i had never even seen her
as a sexual being
...not to say that she couldn't be
but anyway
yesterday
she told me it was okay
and that she loved me anyway
the next day
i didn't see her
at the usual spot
where we would share verbal play
then a week went by
i saw her on my way to somewhere else
but all she said was hi
then a month passed
she stared me right in the face
but said nothing
as she went passed
did i develop acne on my face
perhaps a wart on my nose
blisters on my fingers
or missing some toes?
did my breath smell foul
or my tummy grumble loud?
i'm just scratching my head
trying to figure out how
yesterday
became skip a day
and how okay
trickled down to
stay the hell away
"from that chic
who had your back
through thick and thin
and who took time out
when no one else would listen
and who still stayed by your side
while others called you
a big fat smelly trick
and i held you
while you cried"
because
now that i told you my secret
i'm no longer clean
i'm just that dirty girl
that you used to care about
more than the whole wide world
but now you're second guessing
every sentence that used words
such as "like", "love", "girlfriend"
and second guessing every touch
wondering if any of it
ever meant more...
i would have respected it
if you just wasn't down
but for you to say that it was cool
then to turn around
disregard me,
and make me look like a fool...
...damn, didn't think coming out
would be quite this cruel
September 2004 _________________ Love is something that wasn't meant for chains, so why keep it bound by something as trivial as gender?--Synful Desire
Wed Sep 08, 2004 3:42 am
DanceofSorrows
Joined: 29 Aug 2004
Posts: 2837
Wow just read this.... I like it too!
Dance~
Mon Nov 08, 2004 9:21 pm
Tigger Site Admin
Joined: 06 Feb 2004
Posts: 890
Cleverly written.
Well done...hope everything works out for you.
Tigs
Mon Nov 08, 2004 11:56 pm
Tullia_1976
Joined: 01 Nov 2004
Posts: 414
Location: Canada
Hey,
You have an amazing talent. I love this poem its cleverly written, but I feel bad for you. I felt bad for you when I just saw the name you picked to use on MelsWeb. Sinful? Anyway, none of my business I know. I just don't want you to be ashamed. If it makes you feel any better. I was caught making out with my little sisters best friend, and people got over it, or learned to accept it. Sometimes it takes time, and people are afraid to tell you they aren't down with it. They are afraid of not being politically correct. It sucks, but we are all here to support each other. So take good care of yourself, and keep posting. We'll be here to keep posting replies.
~Tullia _________________ The only things to regret in life, are those you never attempted.
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