Joined: 18 Nov 2004
Posts: 290
Location: South Florida
down, deep down......
Here I go again
Descent into my maelstrom
Depression setting in
Feeling alone and abandoned
My loved one said she loved me
And then got up and left
My friends would never leave me
But they all also left
No love,no friends
No light,no life
no dreams,no hope
just me and my crying heart
I’m out of love
I’m out of tears,
I’m out of hope
Just full of fears
Sunrise is dark
Dusk comes alone
I try to laugh
pain to the bone
“I’ll stand by you”
One of them said
I look around
Its emptiness
I wish I could
My life I’d change
What I’d become
I cannot name
I hope that this
Will all soon pass
I could be happy
Like in the past
Those days are gone
I feel so old
Alone and old
Sad way to go _________________ i love the scent of a womyn, the touch of a womyn, the taste of a womyn
Wed Jun 01, 2005 7:20 pm
SWAY
Joined: 14 Apr 2005
Posts: 1560
Location: Upstate NY
.... _________________ Giving myself to others has made me jaded...
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Wed Jun 01, 2005 7:38 pm
DanceofSorrows
Joined: 29 Aug 2004
Posts: 2837
(((Chame)))
When you doubt, come nearer to these words and this truth, 'You are worth the life you haven't lived yet with someone always by your side, and friends who call you family.' Warm, safe, silent hugs holding you, just holding you in all that you feel.
Dance~
Wed Jun 01, 2005 7:42 pm
chame70
Joined: 18 Nov 2004
Posts: 290
Location: South Florida
Sway, Dance
Thanks, both of you! I really think unless someone has experienced all of you here at Mel's no one could describe it. Like trying to tell a stranger about Rock & Roll...they wouldn't understand.
I was let down agin, once more and it gets old. I know how i start to feel and that gets old. At least i know its "one more swing" of the pendelum my life is.
I Thank Melons for having us here and all of you for your never ending support!
I know I'll get through it, i always do. Its funny, I started this morning and the read Mistress Haven's "Untitled" piece and I don't believe in coincidences, today was just one more of those days.
Hugs to all of You!!!!!!
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((all at Mel's))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Sway, Dance, Linda, Mel., Melons, u r all very special.
chame _________________ i love the scent of a womyn, the touch of a womyn, the taste of a womyn
Wed Jun 01, 2005 7:55 pm
SWAY
Joined: 14 Apr 2005
Posts: 1560
Location: Upstate NY
.... _________________ Giving myself to others has made me jaded...
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Wed Jun 01, 2005 8:23 pm
chame70
Joined: 18 Nov 2004
Posts: 290
Location: South Florida
Sway
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Sway))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Hugs
chame _________________ i love the scent of a womyn, the touch of a womyn, the taste of a womyn
Wed Jun 01, 2005 8:30 pm
Mairi bheag
Joined: 04 Mar 2005
Posts: 5094
Location: Scotland
Been there, dear friend.
(((((chame)))))
Mb
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Wed Jun 01, 2005 8:47 pm
chame70
Joined: 18 Nov 2004
Posts: 290
Location: South Florida
Down, deep down
Mairi,
Thanks. I think its something we all go through one way or another, some to a greater degree than others.
I am diagnosed and on meds but it isn't always that simple. I wish it was different but then i wouldn't be me.
"The blues ain't nothin' but a good person cryin' cause the woman they loved done left them" (Crossroads)
hugs
chame _________________ i love the scent of a womyn, the touch of a womyn, the taste of a womyn
Wed Jun 01, 2005 9:04 pm
DarkChyldesKiss Site Admin
Joined: 29 Mar 2005
Posts: 3381
Location: Inner Sanctum
chame,
Big hugs to you! I always believe that if you love in whatever way that you should always stand by them. Its sad to see people who can stand by you in good times but then disappear when things are rough. I've seen that enough. I've always been the strong one to hold everybody up so it annoys me that when I'm having a weak moment everyone scatters to the wind.
If you need somebody to stand by you, I'll be around. Not going anywhere anytime soon.
Chame~
I know that we haven't had the pleasure of talking much but I adore you hun...yes it is true I have silently adored you.You have a good heart and that is one in a million.You hang in there and when you feel that depression that loneliness gripping at your soul you remember that you are adored and loved and appreciated.Your replies to my work are valued and I am glad you are here.Warm safe hugs to you my friend...
~Michelle
Fri Jun 03, 2005 3:20 am
chame70
Joined: 18 Nov 2004
Posts: 290
Location: South Florida
Thank You
Michelle, Dark,
Thank you all. When you are feeling like you are all alone in the world, all of you here at Mel's seem to rally around. Thank you all for that, for caring for the friendships I have forged here, for the ones I am forging as I battle these demons. Right now, I do need all the support I can get but as far as my battle with my demons, that is something i have to do on my own. No one can battle them for me. I will get through this. I have to.
I once considered myself the "happiest person i knew" and considered it my calling in life to try and make others happy. I guess this is my biggest test.
I really Thank and Love all of You!!!!!!!!!
Hugs
chame _________________ i love the scent of a womyn, the touch of a womyn, the taste of a womyn
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