Here's my situation: I've slept with 15 men and I've had an orgasm maybe twice, I'm not even sure if I did.
Just 2 days ago I was with a man and he asked me to masturbate and as I did I was wondering about a lesbian friend of mine, getting my pleasure out of imagining her with me.
I've never had sex with a woman.... I think I'm pretty much afraid I'll find myself to be a lesbian.
That would explain all the sleeping around, like I'm trying to hide from signals that were apparent before. I've fell in love with a woman before, and when I was a kid I tried to kiss a female friend from school.
In my heart I know I can't keep on lying to myself. I have to find out the truth as to who I am...
I am quite confused at the time, I apologize if this doen't make any sense.
Shalom,
Caramel
Sun May 18, 2008 11:32 pm
fortheloveofagood... Site Admin
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well... that's quite an intimate intro! Welcome to mels Caramel!
I cannot answer your question, it's part of your personal journey... but i do suggest you wander over to the coming out section and have a browse... you may recognise parts of yourself and realise you are not alone.
All the best and once again, welcome to mels.
Kx
Mon May 19, 2008 8:33 am
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Hello caramel
Welcome to Mels.I hope you find tha answers that you are seeking here in our lovely community. Maybe browsing through the wonderful,informative pages here might help you on your journey to self discovery.
Pop into the chat room sometime,it's a great place to meet new friends.
((((((hugs))))))
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We are spiritual beings having a human experience."
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Mon May 19, 2008 10:14 am
Raven
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Chica keep in mind one thing while you try to figure all this out - that no matter what you conclude about yourself there's nothing wrong with it. Nothing to fear or be ashamed of. You are just you and more you find and act like YOU the more beautiful your life will become. Straight, gay, or somewhere in between you are beautifully normally different.
Smiles, WELCOME TO MELS,
Kisses Raven _________________ Love is my Salvation and Destruction.
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