Thank You
I am still a girl
Facing a world
That I am not sure of
A stranger… I watch
All these women moving around me
With such certainty… With such love
I think about how my life is going to shape out
Whether I’ll have children,
Whether I’ll end up alone…
I think about all the trails I will face
Because I was born different
Part of another race
I cry sometimes…
Alone at night, I sit in silence
And wonder exactly why
I am how I am…
Still so young, yet so sure
Many years I searched
For a hidden door
To take me into another world
Where everyone else seems to dwell
What’s ‘normal’ these days anyway?
Everything has changed
Only seventeen, it scares me to death
Many years I fooled myself
I thought, just maybe I could be somebody else
One of those girls who swoon
Over deep voices and muscular arms…
I spent a while, kissing scratchy stubble
And many times, I closed my eyes
And thought of something else…
As he moved back and forth
Feeling sick, I as I recalled such thoughts
Of a time, where all I wanted, was to belong…
And now, as I lay in my bed
The darkness swirling round my head…
Soft skin and deep blue eyes
Drift in and out of my thoughts
A tender kiss, lingering on my lips
From my lover, my mistress
Who dances with men, abashed by her elegance.
Men who place foolish bets
Over who will be her first love…
I think about the hardships ahead
Yet then I pause a moment and recollect
The stories of all those women before me
Living happily, living strong
They give me strength
And although I may not yet feel like I completely belong
I want to say thank you, to all of you
You help me carry on
And I am still a girl
Facing a world
That I am not sure of…
However I watch these women
Moving around me, so certain, of everything…
These mentors, they guide me
When times are tough they are my hope
My strength, unspoken, they do not realise
How much they do
By just believing in themselves
And staying true…
Thank you
Thu Mar 31, 2005 4:49 am
wyldhart
Joined: 02 Dec 2004
Posts: 1216
Lyra--
This is a wonderful write.....you should post it on the emotional poetry forum...expose the beauty of it! It will get the honor it deserves!
Excellent!
hugs
wyld _________________ "wyld in the darkest places of your mind"
Thu Mar 31, 2005 10:22 am
calypso
Joined: 28 Jul 2005
Posts: 43
This poem makes me want to cry,
but at the same time it makes me proud of being who I am...
It's wonderfull....
Thu Jul 28, 2005 9:45 pm
NIC
Joined: 15 Aug 2005
Posts: 141
Location: Brooklyn NY
This poem makes me feel good!
Thanx _________________
"For those who understand you,No explanation is necessary, for those who don't,none is possible."
Thu Sep 01, 2005 3:58 pm
Cavewoman
Joined: 06 Sep 2005
Posts: 2056
Location: nearby
Nicely written. You've managed somehow to actually define EXACTLY what haunts you..... Subject matter: if you know yourself this well already, just keep believing and striving.... you'll be ok...
Keep blowing out the birthday candles and lift your head high, smiling
Thu Sep 08, 2005 5:59 am
beautifullyjaded
Joined: 04 Sep 2005
Posts: 289
Location: lost in love
You've described to a tee how I felt just two years ago. But now, wherever I go with my girlfriend, we walk, fingers laced, together. I feel no shame thanks to women like Melissa Etheridge and Ellen Degeneres and so many others. I read here and I do belong.
Thanks,
Bjaded _________________ You've jaded me and that's beautiful
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There is no such thing as normal
Fri Sep 09, 2005 10:14 pm
GayGoddess
Joined: 27 Jan 2006
Posts: 45
Location: Michigan
That is a wonderful poem, I felt every word of it and you should definitely continue writing! You're so in touch with your feelings. I can relate to so much of your poem, but I can assure you that it does get easier. There are many struggles for us in this world, but when you finally find your true love, you'll realize just how worth it everything really is. I've got the love of my life sitting next to me right now, and it is an amazing feeling to be able to say that. You will one day say it too. Don't stress too much about the girls who have your heart who are taken by other guys and things like that. There is one out there for you. Keep writing! I can't wait to read more of your work! _________________
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Keep writing! I can't wait to read more of your work!
