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Searchin' for the vein

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rachelle



Joined: 20 Oct 2006
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Location: california
Searchin' for the vein

Time passin' by me
Is like ridin' on this train
Hard to get the lesson
When your searchin' for the vein

Pullin' shut the curtains
And lockin' up the door
Tightening up the tournquet
Like so many times before

Used to worry about it
And hid myself in shame
Now I don't think much about it
'Cause I'd probably go insane

Both arms aint lookin' too good
Neither are my toes
Been livin' hard for a long time
That's just how it goes

There's somethin' always followin' me
It's never far behind
Feels kinda like a shadow
But I think it's in my mind

Somehow I lost my way
Somewhere along this track
So I decided to take this train now
And try to get it back

But the rails are never ending
The track goes on and on
The landscape keeps on changin'
From the dusk until the dawn

I'm starin' out the window
Lookin' at the rain
Thinkin' that I'm drownin'
While searchin' for the vein

Post Fri Oct 20, 2006 3:48 pm 
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Eiregirl



Joined: 21 Jul 2005
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Location: Chasing a pink bunny


rachelle,

Hugs to you and wishing you well

Eiregirl Arrow
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Post Sat Oct 21, 2006 3:18 am 
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rachelle



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Location: california


Thanks for reading my stuff and your comments.

Post Sat Oct 21, 2006 4:18 am 
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smart_cookie



Joined: 12 Aug 2006
Posts: 2310
Location: USA


Rachelle, have you ever heard a song called "Been On A Train" by laura Nyro? This so reminds me of it. From memory, it goes about like this:

been on a train
baby, can you hear the whistle blow?
been on a train north
baby, can you hear the whistle blow?
I saw a man take a needle full of hard drug, and die slow

there's a bright light in the north wind,
gonna bring ya home
Mister there's a bright light in the north wind
gonna bring ya home
he said, sweet darlin' woman
leave me alone

no no, damn you mister, and I dragged him out the door
no no, damn you mister, and I dragged him out the door
he died in the morning sun
and I won't go north no more.

Post Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:56 pm 
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rachelle



Joined: 20 Oct 2006
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Location: california


WOW-No I have never heard it, but i am going to locate the song and listen. Thank you for letting me know and thank you for reading and commenting as I am new to this site.---rachelle

Post Thu Oct 26, 2006 12:05 am 
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Mystic



Joined: 23 Oct 2006
Posts: 194


rachelle, your writings are lovely - really good.

they kind of remind me of mine.
you express youself so well.
keep at it.

and congrats and proud of you.
i admire you, you got strength girl.


mystic

Post Sat Oct 28, 2006 12:30 am 
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ae



Joined: 17 Sep 2006
Posts: 1025
Location: that tragic backwater, the gulf coast of florida


Since we're quoting:

"Giveitaway giveitaway giveitaway now!"

I'm not trying to be cavalier, my sister. I don't even know what the hell else that song was about, all I know is that what you have, you got to give to someone else,
because S E R V I C E is the only way to keep it.

You don't need no fighting stance, cuz you won't have a fighting chance thru fighting. Use your hands to do a kindness to your body. Wash your own feet. Pull warm, soft things over your skin. Hug yourself. But if the thought of loving yourself is still too creepy, love someone else, help another addict, love another lush. S E R V I C E saved my ass, and the love came later.

But it came.

You've moved me today, and made me grateful. Thank you.
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Post Sun Oct 29, 2006 9:56 pm 
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rachelle



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Location: california


Thank you-for the response. I actually have never used a narcotic in my life,but I know addiction. I have 1 year of sobriety(alcoholic), but it really is all the same.

Post Mon Oct 30, 2006 12:26 am 
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ae



Joined: 17 Sep 2006
Posts: 1025
Location: that tragic backwater, the gulf coast of florida


Interesting.

Yeah, it's the same, and it's not the same.

I try never to get into the "who's got it worse" debate, but I know for sure that I never had to deal with going to, say, a baby shower or office party, where every other person was offering me a hit to go shoot up. And I never had to deal with innocently turning the corner to the next aisle in the grocery store, only to be confronted by row upon row of beautifully marketed hypodermics full of some treat or another.

Any drug addiction comes with more social shame, but that's a tradeoff because they come with less social pressure. Alcohol was the worst addiction I ever had. Congratulations on your year. But seriously ... S E R V I C E. Ask someone who does service whether it changed the caliber of their recovery. It makes all the difference.

tnx,
ae
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Post Thu Nov 02, 2006 12:57 am 
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rachelle



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Location: california


ae,
Thank you again for responding. I actually agree w/ you regarding service. I am open and honest about my alcoholism, because of that several people have come to me w/ their addictions. I listened, told them about my experience and provided them w/ information regarding treatment options. I am still listening, talking and sharing--it is what keeps me sober. i wish you continued sobriety. rachelle

Post Thu Nov 02, 2006 3:45 am 
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Roman



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Rachelle,
Holy shit!
Once again you have written a powerful and captivating write.
Watched too many of my friends and ex lovers go down that road before.
Thanx for writing it!
~Cheers, Jack
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Post Sun Mar 25, 2007 11:49 am 
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rachelle



Joined: 20 Oct 2006
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Location: california


Jack,
Great to hear from you! I've been off the site for a while and just starting to get back on. Looks like you unarchived some of my earlier writings. thanks! I haven't been writing much lately, because life is really good for me. Isn't it funny that we don't take the time to write when things are going well---or at least I don't. I guess i have to be miserable or have some type of fucking chaos in my life to write. maybe I should write about that--lol--------smiles to you!!!!------rachelle

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