Tracey
Joined: 30 Dec 2005
Posts: 1489
Location: Ayr, Scotland
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finding new emotions (anger and hate)
Finally finding my emotions
It’s really hard to do
Working out how they feel
And how to use them in a safe way
Anger and hatred are so foreign to me
I have never experienced them in any safe way
To me anger was self harm
Hurting me in any which way it can
Something I have never been allowed to express
Always buried painfully inside
Hatred is even harder to accept
I have never hated anyone not even my abusers
Yet this has now raised its ugly head
Now it is an emotion, a feeling
No longer just a word written down
I hate him now with no remorse
Could castrate him with no guilt
I no longer want to see him
I am angry just hearing his name
He makes me feel so nauseous just knowing he is related
I can now honestly say I hate my brother
And may his soul rot in hell!
(c) Tracey 15 April 2009 _________________ I know I'm in my own little world, but it's ok. They know me here.
sometimes i wonder... ' why is that frisbee getting bigger'... and then it hits me
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