from point a. (drug-virgin) to point b. c. d. and e.
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EverydayAngelKarie
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from point a. (drug-virgin) to point b. c. d. and e.
i remember the days
of being a drug-virgin,
and everyone wanted to:
a.) convert me to druggie-ism
b.) talk shit about me
c.) intentionally make fun of me for being a "wimp"
and i remember hating those days
of being a drug-virgin,
and all i wanted to do was:
a.) fit in with my "friends" and my first female love interest
b.) feel like i was blocking away all the bullshit in life
c.) snort a few lines to prove my "strength"
i remember those two and a half years,
of no longer being a drug-virgin,
and all we ever wanted to do together were:
a.) pawn people's shit for money
b.) buy drugs with the cash
c.) do as many various drugs as we could every day
i remember the two more years that have passed,
and how since two years ago now i have not been into that shit,
and all i want to do is:
a.) forget about how stupid i was
b.) save my friends from making the bad decisions that we made together
c.) forgive myself for ruining the last two years of my high school life.
i remember the days,
when i was a drug-virgin,
and three reasons
i should have just
left it that way...
a.) drugs kill (little by little by little by big by big by big until nothing's left)
b.) drugs murder (hearts, bodies, minds, goals, and souls never rest)
c.) drugs destroy (time, friends, families, and put life to the ultimate test)
(this is just something i just had to write out because i dont express my feelings about this often enough and it has kinda been driving me crazy lately. im glad those days of my life are pretty far gone now,, but i cant help but think about where the fuck i would be if i hadnt stopped. thats the scariest thing about it all. i am so thankful that i had enough sensibility to quit before it was too late. unlike some of my old "best friends", who continue to do the same things. gosh, this is just so depressing. anyway, im done ramblin' now. i dont think this is much of a poem by the way, but maybe somebody else will like it for what it is. thanks for readin. i just needed to get these scattered feelings out of my brain...laters.)
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