When I excised the alcohol from my life,
It certainly saved me from dying
(And I did not do it alone--
No, never alone)
But, once the wound it had made in my life was cleaned,
Debrided,
And allowed to heal,
I was left with a gap in the middle of my world.
Who would I be
Without it?
Mightn't life be dull?
And would I be so diminished in its absence,
That I would leave no reflection in the mirror
Like a ghost?
Over time, though,
Life proved
Richer
Sweeter
Brighter
Better
Than it had ever been before,
And I began to like the person
I saw in the mirror.
Now,
It is an emotional drug I must remove
(And I wouldn't have chosen to, alone--
No, never alone)
But once this deeper wound
Is cleaned,
Debrided,
And allowed to heal,
Won't there be a gap in my world?
Who will I be
Without it?
Mightn't life be dull?
And will I be so diminished in its absence,
That I will leave no reflection in the mirror
Like a ghost?
In the end, it won't be enough, being right,
And facts won't fill the emptiness;
I have to be able to believe
That once again,
Life could be
Richer
Sweeter
Brighter
Better
And that I won't have to be alone
Even when Alone is the name of the road I must travel down;
Please leave me your friendship
Like birds singing in the branches by the way
That I am not meant to hold,
But I can hear
And see
And which help me to feel that all is as it should be,
And that I can do this
Metamorphosis
One more time.
Fri Mar 07, 2008 4:39 am
Beth
Joined: 01 Jan 2008
Posts: 336
Location: Michigan
This spoke to my heart Cookie, it is full of wisdom and reflection and care
Wonderful journey this life when souls hear each other through the noise
Beth _________________ StarGazer
Fri Mar 07, 2008 7:40 am
shanelvr
Joined: 18 Mar 2007
Posts: 1078
Location: pennsylvania
(((((((((((((Cookster))))))))))))))
Were you in my mind again woman? I can understand this one as if I wrote it myself. I have struggled with the monster for longer than I choose to admit. I have often wondered what else is out there...where will I ever fit in when this life is all I know. I still don't have the answer, but I pray everyday to find my way. Thank you for writing this my friend!!
Shanelvr _________________ Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Fri Mar 07, 2008 7:46 am
smart_cookie
Joined: 12 Aug 2006
Posts: 2310
Location: USA
quote:Originally posted by Beth:
This spoke to my heart Cookie, it is full of wisdom and reflection and care
Wonderful journey this life when souls hear each other through the noise
Beth
Beth, you are the Queen of making the most wonderful comments in a sentence or two. *smiles* thanks.
Cookie
Fri Mar 07, 2008 12:49 pm
smart_cookie
Joined: 12 Aug 2006
Posts: 2310
Location: USA
quote:Originally posted by shanelvr:
(((((((((((((Cookster))))))))))))))
Were you in my mind again woman? I can understand this one as if I wrote it myself. I have struggled with the monster for longer than I choose to admit. I have often wondered what else is out there...where will I ever fit in when this life is all I know. I still don't have the answer, but I pray everyday to find my way. Thank you for writing this my friend!!
Shanelvr
((((((((((((((((Shanelvr)))))))))))))))
Nothing cures like commonality. Nobody understands like someone who has been there. Sorry about being in your mind again, Shane, I'll try to observe boundaries better!
This stuff is certainly a puzzle, and sometimes pretty painful, but I do believe there are rewards to be found. Usually not the Saul-on-the-road-to Damascus sort of revelation, but more like new leaves that slowly uncurl, until one day, without our really even knowing it, there they are.
I've truly appreciated all of your recent comments!
Cookie
Fri Mar 07, 2008 12:54 pm
SharayaKai
Joined: 13 Feb 2007
Posts: 245
Location: Mountains of Utah
One of the silliest concepts in this world is that we do something, good or bad, alone. As you know, Cookie, we are never truly alone, even when our world comes crashing down, there are others walking with you. Beth, Shane and myself acknowledge our walk with you, others have read and remained silent, but they walk with you. That's the wonderful thing about Mels, ALL of us are not making our journeys alone when we post and reach out.
I, for one, love it! I may not have the succintness that makes Beth so amazing, but I hope I've conveyed the same admiration of your talents just the same. Be well, my friend.
Peace
Shar
PS :: whispers conspiratorially :: Beth's a cutie, ain't she. :: giggles and runs away :: _________________ Until next we meet...
Fri Mar 07, 2008 2:53 pm
poeticrendezvous
Joined: 15 Dec 2007
Posts: 278
Location: IL
Cookie,
A very deep and wonderful write, thanks for sharing this~
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