Joined: 14 Apr 2005
Posts: 1560
Location: Upstate NY
Done
What do you do when everything seems to lead to nowhere? What do you do when everything you've ever wanted isn't gonna happen? What do you do when all you want to do is give up on everyone and everything? What do I do? I don't want anyone or anything anymore...I don't know anything anymore...I don't know if I even want to survive....any of this....
I'm done....with all that ever was, is, and will be.... _________________ Giving myself to others has made me jaded...
Tue May 25, 2010 5:33 pm
DanceofSorrows
Joined: 29 Aug 2004
Posts: 2837
You take this moment as the valley in life... and take comfort and strength from every person your eyes can hold that each of us has been there and understands the depth of such sorrow and brokeness, the craziness within that words do not seem to describe.
There is hope. The valley does not give us the peaks or height to see the future. Perhaps that is the hardest thing about it. You are moving through it, and your honesty about its rawness and depth shows a wonderful quality within you, that your life and experiences are significant.
Hear me when I say... that I hear you. Holding you in my thoughts.
Dance~
Tue May 25, 2010 7:51 pm
Guest
Sway.... I can't even begin to tell you what there is to do... except fight to live. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT. And don't you dare give up! .... message in your pocket kiddo.... remember? j
Tue May 25, 2010 8:13 pm
MysteryGirl Moderators
Joined: 02 Jun 2007
Posts: 3419
Location: I come from a land downunder
Just keep waking up every morning.................for a long time it will be all you could do, and even that feels beyond terrible. I'm not gonna tell you to do wonderfully uplifting things in that day you face, just survive. Drag your sorry ass through it as best you can, then sleep, and wake up again. Get thru another day. Breathe........sometimes that seems the stupidest comment anyone can make to you but there were times when I felt paralysed and panicky and ill because I simply wasn't breathing deeply enough. Again, it's the oldest advice in the book, but take each day at a time, if a day seems too hard to contemplate, then break it into morning, afternoon and night and if those blocks of time are still too large to envisage getting through, then damnit break it into hours. You can do the next hour, cant you hon?
HugZ, MG _________________ Be yourself.............everybody else is taken!
Tue May 25, 2010 11:40 pm
SWAY
Joined: 14 Apr 2005
Posts: 1560
Location: Upstate NY
Thank you ladies.... _________________ Giving myself to others has made me jaded...
Wed May 26, 2010 1:08 am
naturelover
Joined: 19 Sep 2009
Posts: 70
Location: East Coast US
Sway, Sway, Sway....
What would you do if another Mels lady is asking the very same question? Based on your previous posts, I believe you would
1) feel for her
2) "hug" her
3) encourage her to think positive
4) be there for her
See, you are such a supportive, warmth, and fun lady. Don't let your mind trick you!
Our mind is very good at making us feel useless and hopeless, especially when we are tired. The trick, as I experimented it many times, is to think about all the wonderful people around you, like mels ladies!
It's easier said than done. Try it? Please?
Wed May 26, 2010 2:20 am
wishonastar
Joined: 23 Jan 2007
Posts: 967
Location: Where I belong
(((((((((((((((((((((SWAY)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
My long hiding gimpy friend,
I have recently been right where you are now and like MG says BREATH. its the best you can do at times. put one foot in front of the other and keep moving. remember tomorrow is another day and what doesnt kill us will make us stronger. If you need someone to listen send me a pm.
Just keep swimming Sway!!!!
Huge Hugs
Star _________________ I'm not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up, what I’ve been wishing for.
Down - Jason Woods
Wed May 26, 2010 3:00 pm
GreenEyedKiss Moderators
Joined: 22 Jun 2005
Posts: 682
Location: Barony of the Angels in the Kingdom of Caid.
((((((((((((((((((((SWAY))))))))))))))))))))))))
Hear me friend, as I hear you also....if you feel like you just can't find it in you to take one more breath, then I will happily take a deep breath for you and force it into your lungs
I've been there too, and nothing is worth nothing.
You have so many friends here lady...never forget it.
*keeping you in a warm embrace til you have to fight to get out of it*
never stop fighting.
Green _________________ "I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm getting it done." ~ADM
"What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others remains immortal"
Fri Jun 25, 2010 9:19 am
SWAY
Joined: 14 Apr 2005
Posts: 1560
Location: Upstate NY
Thank you ladies, and I am taking the advice...breathing...one step at a time...going thru the motions....I will make it...and I know I have tons of friends here, old and new
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It means a lot.
Hugs,
SWAY _________________ Giving myself to others has made me jaded...
Fri Jun 25, 2010 1:35 pm
BdeCaunteton
Joined: 07 Jan 2007
Posts: 955
Location: Iowa City, IA
How about this Sway, when one of us figures this out, or at least have an idea, we'll pass it on to each other and we'll get ourselves out of this rut somehow together. Sounds good right? *big anime cuteness smile* _________________ “It would be a pity of lesbians and gay men retreated into the same kind of cultural separatism. " - Jeanette Winterson
www[dot]bdecauntetonspoetry[dot]webs[dot]com
Fri Jun 25, 2010 5:20 pm
Cavewoman
Joined: 06 Sep 2005
Posts: 2056
Location: nearby
_________________ " The sorcerers in life are created within each of us" --- Lynn V. Andrews
Sat Jun 26, 2010 12:58 am
fortheloveofagood... Site Admin
Joined: 17 Dec 2005
Posts: 2216
Location: loves land of plenty
remember you are loved... you are love, you are the light in the darkness, even through these hard times.
it's ok to find life hard, it is hard, incredibly so...
when i feel like you do, i need hugs, i need to be held, for someone else to say -
it. is. going. to. be. ok.
- to be strong for me, when i can't be. And we're all here to be that for you. As Gek said, one breath at a time.
'don't hate your enemies, it clouds your judgement'
~peace comes from knowing only love is real~
Sat Jun 26, 2010 9:43 am
pharos
Joined: 21 Jun 2009
Posts: 583
Location: Australia
Re: Done
quote:Originally posted by SWAY:
What do you do when everything seems to lead to nowhere? What do you do when everything you've ever wanted isn't gonna happen? What do you do when all you want to do is give up on everyone and everything? What do I do?
You wait for the dawn, Sway... It's not as far away as it seems. Meanwhile, lean on your friends, real life and online, and like K said, remember you are loved.
hugs
Pharos
Sat Jun 26, 2010 1:43 pm
wys2uways
Joined: 02 Jun 2007
Posts: 272
I am here for you too....anytime at all.
Hang in there.
It WILL get better.
Sat Jun 26, 2010 3:43 pm
Sprout
Joined: 26 Aug 2005
Posts: 130
Location: Upstate NY
Sway....at the risk of sounding cliche....this too, shall pass. Whatever you may have going on right now...taking life one day - one breath - one step - at a time.
As the others have said, you have many friends here who will always listen with an open heart and a warm shoulder should you need one.
Take care,
Sprout _________________ 51% Sweetheart, 49% Bitch...Don't Push It!
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